when you feel hopeless, pray...

​The sun brings everything to light
​all the colors and shapes,
​Hallelujah! Amen!
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Journal Entry

April 23, 2019

(Written before I read my Bible)

I have turned the corner on my depression. I see colors brighter and notice the things around me. I have a hope for my future. This is most certainly signs of my depression lifting...

I randomly opened to;  Job 38:12-15 (The Message)

"And have you ever ordered 'Morning Get Up! told Dawn, Get to Work!' So you could seize Earth like a blanket and shake out the wicked like cockroaches? As the sun brings everything to light, brings out all the colors and shapes, the cover of darkness is snatched from the wicked, they're caught in the very act!"

A word to me, a confirmation from the Lord!


I had been sick since January, with pneumonia, and then the flu, and then another virus, and then, well the doctors didn't know what it was. All of this was on top of the usual chronic pain and autoimmune stuff I dealt with every day. I was feeling hopeless and afraid.

So I began to read my Bible, the Word of God, everyday, and I began to pray. Nothing happened, at least not right away. And then God healed me. It wasn't a big amazing miracle healing. They happen to other people, mostly on TV,  but that's not what God had in mind for me, at least not yet. I had to walk that road, with Him, everyday, and carry my cross. 

My big beautiful cross.

My arts and crafty cross.

My colorful ceramic tile and glass bead cross.

I read the Word and I prayed hard, even when I couldn't feel Jesus' presence, even when it was hard to believe, I believed anyway.

One day as I read His words, I looked out my window and I could see colors. I could see the blue river and the green trees, and the big puffy white clouds in the sky. It was Spring! Wow! When did that happen? And I could feel it too. There was a lifting. I felt lighter, like I could fly.

What a Beautiful Day that was!!

Thank you Jesus!!

Never lose hope. Stay close to Jesus. He is always there, even when you can't feel Him.
He doesn't promise a smooth path, but He will walk it with you. And he always gives you what you need to survive, and then some. He makes all things new!
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Until next time,

Hopefully,

Susan
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For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.  John 3:16 NIV



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